He was my very survival. Without him, I was nothing. Pippin (Sampson)I'm broken, hiding my pain behind fake smiles and pretend joy. Inside, I'm a mental mess between being tossed into conversion therapy and foster care as a kid. I struggle to focus and suffer anxiety, panic attacks, and nightmares. My passions for skateboarding and bartending make me happy enough. But only Nate, my former foster brother and best friend, calms me and keeps me going forward. I'm not sure what I would do without him. Even worse, I secretly love him. Loving him could mean losing him. Nacho (Nathan)I'd been in and out of foster care for as long as I could remember. My last home was with Sam. We quickly became friends, and I instantly went into protective mode. After Sam got hurt by our foster father, I took Sam out of there and watched over him for two years while living on the streets. When you spend a lifetime not being wanted by anyone, you crave being needed, and Sam needs me. But I secretly love him. I've told my friends I don't want to ruin my friendship with Sam. The truth is if we don't work out, I won't be there to take care of him. Sam's needs are more important than my feelings. MM Urban, Found Family, New Adult, Best Friends to Lovers, Secret Love, Pining, Skateboarder RomanceCW: Conversion therapy and abuse, suicidal ideations, panic attacks, anxiety, PTSD, iatrophobia (intense fear of doctors), abandonment, co-dependency, mental health rep.